Dafuk?

problems problems

sooo i'll talk about my problems know no one is gonna listen to me but still :) sooo let's start from the start :) i don't know  my own personality :( i'm different with every one :(( i'm a happy geek girl with one of my friends i'm a dramatic girl with one person a polite girl with my parent's friends a brainless fun-loving girl with one of my BFF-S  a rock-lover with another one and so on :( so who am i ? what do i want? how can i give others advise if i my self can't understand my self :( sad isn't it? :( wish i knew who i am :(( my life sucks some times...well....that's all creepy news for one day...naahh.i'll make another post about my feelings to the "world" :)

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i am bored hungry sleepy and need to stop learning right noooow ":(

the sketch i wrote :)

soo now i'll write a little sketch plz read it and tel me your reaction it means a lot <3

she was sitting at the bar  just 14 holding a cigarette and thinking: "should i do it? just a little touch it won't hurt right?" and she gave it a touch couldn't resist the tempt anymore. she smiled through her red plump lips and her white teeth started to shine. when she opened her eyes she saw a 30 year old man standing near her he was looking at her with he's blue eyes and was touching his golden hair. he sat near her and smiled
_hey there how old are you? - asked he while smiling
_17! - she lied.- "17 16 15 what is the difference?"- she thought
_Small girl!!! may i have your name?_asked he
_Liz_this time she didn't lie
_so were do you live?
_no more questions please_she mumbled
_why? _ asked he again with he's amazing smile
_i know what you want_she smiled_and it's not my phone number not my name age or anything like that!
_well you are right_again with the smile_so how much are you worth?
_a lot_she said
_how much lot?
_100! for an hour_said and gave cigarette another smoke
_i can pay that!
she didn't give a reply just a slow smiley full of pain hurt devastation . just took the 1000$ he gave her grabbed   his arm and went to his room.
 it was about 8 in the morning when Liz was walking down the street she slowly walked in to the hospital went to room 9 there was about 30 year old woman laying there she couldn't open her eyes . Liz  turned around doctor was standing near her.
_surgery will cost 1000 $ u sure u can pay that? _asked the doctor.
_ yes a have the money i will do anything to save my mother_and she passed the money that the stranger gave her.

WAR AND PEACE

heeeyy you !!! just finished reading war and peace (weeellll i finished 2 first books) they were super red it in russian was a blast! noow i can;t wait to to read part 3 and 4 but i don't have those parts but my teacher said that she can get me 1 of those soooo FUCK YEAH! my fave character was maria balkonskaia shee was the beest <3 from male characters was dolokhov :) he looks like damon salvatore from the vampire diaries :D: :D: funny right? :D loved the whole plot still i think that natasha was so unfair to andrej :| and nikolaj is just so annoying  he doesn't want to fight for his love poor sonja :( ask for vera and berg they are just created  for each other ipolit is just an idiot why did he did that to natasha? and destroyed her love to andrej? :| aand what was with the whole : i hate princess balkonskaia? thing with natasha? :| marja was so polite and tried to have a good relationship with natasha? :| and the fact that boris wanted  to just use marja almost drove me nuts :( soo that's all hope i didn't bore u :(

HEY

Heyy everyoneee!!!! if there is some one out there lol . i'm new at blogging so....... my life is so hard some times it's just puuuuuuuuuuhhhhh don't know how people deal with it i mean it's like i have everything perfect mother friends (few but they are amazing) i'm not rich butt i'm not poor i just some times feel like no one understands me i have to wear this happy girl mask every single day and it's hard but i'm dealing with it :) i'm listening to three days grace - pain and thinking is it worth to feel the pain and the hurt? or would it be better to just make it stop? i think we need to face it?!!!!!!1 not sure sometimes i think that feeling nothing would be better than all the pain and hurt but i'm just another human and what should i know about that?  well if any one is reading this than thanks for taking your time hope i didn't waist it :(

 so this is me massing with the web cam xoxo